A Failed Christian

Today, one of my Schoolmate died. Same age with me. So young. Just graduated from USM. Just like me, he got the whole world in front of him to take on. And death took it all away from him.

I haven't met him for a long time already. Right after we ended our Form Six, we went to the same University but never really met and chat. After graduation, i did not see him at all but did heard about what he is doing from friends.

But lately, I've bumped into him a few times. I saw him near Northam Hotel, last week. Both of us just gave a quick wave to acknowledge each other's presence and went back to what we're doing.

Lay Hoon and me saw him in PC Fair. He was working there. Lay Hoon asked me whether i wanted to go to his counter and say "Hi". I said "No", He is busy anyway. And that was the last time me and Lay Hoon saw him... He died 5 days later.

According to my friend, he complained of stomachache. After that vomit. Went into a seizure. Then died. It was a sudden death. There's nothing anybody can do about it.

I was on the phone with Kean Chai just now. I told him, somehow, i felt a pinch of responsibility upon his death.

I said to Kean Chai... "I've failed my role as a christian since i'm a friend to someone who do not know the Salvation of God".

Perhaps GOD, was giving opportunities for me. 2 weeks before his death, i got 2 chances to speak to him about God's only son, about after life, about forgiveness and about Hell. Now that he's dead, there's nothing else to tell.

I got this feeling of not attending church this Sunday. Like a son who had brought shame to his father and family... I just cannot face God for a moment.