All I Ever Wanted

There are so many things I want right now. Mainly materialistic.

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I want to get a new cell phone. To tell you the truth, never in my life I bought a handphone with my own money. The first cell phone I got was my mom’s. Then the second one was a gift from my friends. I once used my brother’s cell phone for a long time (my younger brother has a lot of cell phone, he change it from time to time). Currently I’m using a phone which my dad bought it from Macau (made in China). It’s been giving me a lot of problem – people had been complaining about the loud static noise while speaking to me on the phone. Lately, Digi was offering a very good deal for its customer to get an IPhone 3Gs. I was very tempted to buy one (that time, I just got my credit approved) but chose not too (it was not an easy decision – I even dreamt about it).
It was always been my desire to get a HD Camcorder. I always want to get into the field of making independent film / documentary. It is still my dream to make a budget documentary or a short film. Though I have no experience (the only experience I have was going through some Youtube film making tips), I always felt that such limitation will only lead to an original auteur film. You just need to be creative in presenting your ideas with limited resources and skills. I remember saying to myself; “I’ll get the camcorder once I get my second pay check”. It’s nearly a year now since I said that.

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Sony Playstation 3. That’s like every guy’s dream toy to have. But this is a “want” I can easily let go. I seriously got no time to play if I had one. Furthermore, I’m afraid that I may get addicted to it. I once played PS3 in my friend’s house for 10 hours. It was very unhealthy - mentally, physically and socially. Glad I didn’t buy it. Oh yeah, one needs to get a HD TV in order to enjoy the full effect of a PS3. Will definitely cost a bomb.

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My notebook has been giving signs that it will die soon (ever since its neck broke. The screen can’t stand up without a support). That is why I seriously need to look for a new one before this one finally retires and go to I.T Heaven. The camcorder I plan to buy will also need a good computer for editing. Getting a notebook / PC Desktop seems to be the obvious main priority right now. It’s going to be a “NEED” rather than a “WANT” soon. But I’m still contemplating about it right now.

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The last thing is this, which is quite recent. A semi-acoustic guitar. RM2000 at least, for a good one. I believe that music instruments are an important element in one’s life. There are feelings that somehow words cannot describe but only the strumming of that minor key can fulfill that expression. I’m feeling quite repressed, I need to express. The vibration of the strumming guitar seems to be an instrument that can serve as a personal therapy for a stress-out guy like me in KL.

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The current pair of shoes I’m wearing right now is about 5 years old. Had been sending it to the gobbler for like so many times already and I remember the gobbler said to me “pergi beli kasut baru-la, ini sudah mau condemn”. A good pair of shoes will cost about RM200 at least.

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*sigh*... the sport TOTO and Genting Casino is very very tempting right now.

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Run and Charity

I've not been running since Bulan Puasa. And since then, I’ve been running mostly on charity organized run.

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The first one was organized by Sky Adventure Club of Taylor's University College; in support for PAWS Malaysia. I like dogs… I’ll even crawl for them. It was an 8km run at Taman Tasik Permaisuri. My first time running in that place, only heard about that place by Natalie Ng – the so called permaisuri runner.

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Photo taken from 'Pause and Smile'

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Tomorrow will be another charity run. The much publicised Terry Fox run. The purpose? To raise funds for Cancer research. I’ve heard of Mr. Terry Fox before when I was a kid. A great man… ran with only one leg and a right prostatic leg. His dead already and people are still running in his name – a hero? More than that – a legend.

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It makes me wonder. The act of running can inspire people and even create a movement like this Terry Fox Run. I think... it is because people know that the act of running involves pain. And people react to that. People will automatically cheer for you when you are running (even if you are slow). And it is that pain that runner choose to endure that creates such catharsis towards people who are watching it. Watching people running is like watching a stage drama - audience react to it - they sympathise with the runner of the pain they are going through. But most importantly, the painful runner commands respect. And people remember such figures.

We'll miss you Yasmin Ahmad.

Got the news from Lay Hoon; "Yasmin Ahmad is dead". I was shocked.
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I read about it that Yasmin was admitted into the ICU and I was praying and hoping she'll received a speedy recovery. There’s always this thought in my mind that good people will only die at old age. So, her death came as a shock to me.

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Never met her before in person, but I followed greatly on her works. My thesis was on her movie “Sepet”. I’ve watched it over and over again to analyse the characters the subject matter of the movie. Like Literature, her film too allows freedom of interpretation and rich in literary symbolism which makes audience think and reflect upon their society, nation and especially their own self.

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After receiving that devastating news, I watched “Sepet” again this morning. It was emotionally overwhelming this time… knowing that the works of Yasmin Ahmad had touched the heart and soul of my generation in Malaysia, and hopefully will inspire more filmmakers to be like her; to carry on the torch of hope for a better Malaysia.

Thank you Yasmin Ahmad, Malaysia will miss you. You will be remembered forever.